It's been a while since I've heard from you. I suppose it's because it's been a while since you've heard from me.
I'm still struggling to write these letters because they're about me and not some personal development concept you can find on the Library page. I have to trust you. But I also have to be appropriate in my level of transparency. It's a delicate balance, but I think it's necessary. You need to hear from someone who's not just conquered shame once and for all, but has to battle it every single day and hopefully win. I'm a recovering villain. And a "recovering villain" is an antihero.
I'm still tempted to use these letters as a platform to prove something to you. It's me trying to overcome shame by masking it with achievement. I've already stripped away the headings, lists and bullet points, but I think it's also time to let go of the clever titles.
I mean, think about it. When was the last time you got a handwritten letter that had a subject line on the envelope? If anything, your interest was heightened by the fact you had no idea what you were about to open. And because it was from a loved one, you knew it was worth opening.
I'm not a loved one, but I do want to be someone you can eventually trust. Someone you'll know who's gone and still going through what you're currently experiencing. So this is Letter #005.
Whew, that feels so liberating. Now I don't have to think of rigidly staying on topic or creating a content strategy for what should be informal heartfelt pieces of literature. Letter number five. I can rock with that.
If I had to title this letter, it'd be about my first true step of transparency with you. I admitted a struggle, discussed a fear and brainstormed an idea that just might help to write more to you. If anything, that's how I want us to learn through these letters. Not with titles, lists and academic references. This section is about feelings, experiences and trying things out. Getting messy. Being open to change. So here's to a new level of acquaintance.
[Update: Since May 6, 2015, I decided to add simple titles to these letters. It seems more convenient for you to find or revisit the letter you need most. Here's to experimenting!]